Everybody has at least one. I'm starting this little meme things cause I'm bored and I was thinking about the songs I consider my "theme songs." What I'm going to do is post the name of the song and a link to it. Then I will post how this song is relevant to myself.


1. "I'm Still Here" by John Rzeznik of the Goo Goo Dolls. [link]

2. "Fidelity" by Regina Spektor.
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3. "Trump Style" by Kimya Dawson.
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4. "Anyone Else but You" by The Moldy Peaches.
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5. "The Kids Aren't Alright" by The Offspring.
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1. I'm Still Here - This song describes me so well because at the very beginning it states how I'm a question to the world. Also the fact that I don't listen to people when it comes to who I should be because I don't think that anyone should ever tell you who to be. The whole song shows my frustration of when people tell me to change when the people who do so never fail to stay the same. It also shows how I've gone through most of my life feeling like I was nothing because of what people told me. "The can't see me cause I'm not here" evolving into "They don't see me, but I'm still here" and finally "I'm the one now cause I'm still here." I've grown to love the way I am and not give two shits what people think of me.

2. Fidelity fits me in several different ways. For one it shows how I've never really loved that many people. Now I love my parents and I love the few very close friends I have. That's not what I mean, and that's not what I think she means either. It means giving my heart to someone. Of course, I'm only 18 that's not very hard to believe I'm sure. I'm hoping the guy I'm dating will become my love. I really like him. But it's too early to really tell if he's the one yet, and I'm not that worried about that much at the moment. But I always seem to get these little voices in my head that warn me when I try to get too close to someone in that way. I get these doubts from them and it really does break my heart when I get these thoughts.

3. I've always loved to travel. That's one of things right from the beginning. I won't necessarily lose my head if I don't take to the highway, but you get what I'm saying. I've always wanted someone who loved to travel as well and we could go all over the place together and roam free and not have to worry about anything. Of course this being after I become a millionaire and can spend money on gas for at least a year with that money XD That would make me the happiest person in the world.

4. Okay I've always loved this song. And I've always wanted someone that I could sing this song with and really mean it. Hopefully that will happen someday. I will sing it with someone who I truly love and with someone who is as crazy and weird as I am. These lyrics will be the pure definition of my love with this person.

5. Sadly this song describes the life around me to a T. I'm sure I'm not the only one who this song applies to, which makes it all the sadder. Many of my friends have done the things described in this song as well as family. My family is pretty dysfunctional. More so than some and nothing compared to others I know.

I got my Military Ball dress today! It's so gorgeous. I'll get some pictures with it whenever I can, but right now it's at the dry cleaners getting a hook fastened in the back to keep me from having a malfunction while I'm dancing. I'm also getting to go with a date this time ^_^ Well I had to have someone regardless because I'm a senior. We have this senior lead out thing where the honor guard is lined up, four on one side and four on the other facing each other with sabers. They hold them up to each other and the seniors walk through with their dates. There is also the senior dance where only the seniors get to be on the dance floor. I'm so happy. His name is Jackson and here's a picture of him and I when we were in the Skin of Our Teeth together [link] He's so crazy and that's why we work to well. I really like him ^_^

Aaaaanyhoozles. I also like the fact that I get to pick out what song they play during the lead out as well as the senior dance song. I've decided on a song for the lead out. It's "I'm Still Here" by The Goo Goo Dolls.
I haven't decided on a song for the senior dance yet, but I think it'll be a song by Regina Specktor.

Dear God, dysfunction is dysfunction. Bleahhh....

I can't stand my sister and her husband at the moment. Mainly her husband. This is rather unrelated to the events of today, but last night he was making this huge deal for some reason. I wasn't really sure what he was bitching about. I think it had something to do with food he'd bought being eaten by someone. I think he thought I ate it. Actually I know he thinks I ate it because mom told me so. But I'll get to that later.

The real events is that mom got the police called on her thanks to Neil and now he has seven days to get out of the house. Or weeks...I'm not quite sure which one it is. Let me take you back to earlier events if I may so that you may further understand the current situation.

A few weeks ago while Dad was doing the checking he realized that $80 had been taken out of my mom's card. Long story cut short, it was Neil. Surprisingly and unfortunately Mom and Dad let them stay despite this. Now this part doesn't have much to do with this other then the fact it irritated me. Not the $80 part, the part I'm about to say. While Mom and Dad were talking to Neil and Amberley about letting them stay and even letting them do their pagan ritual stuff(personally I have no problem with them doing this and really Mom and Dad didn't care much other then the fact that they were pretty much rubbing it in their faces. My parents are Christian) and letting them teach this to their upcoming child so long as they would also let Dad give the child the information he had on our belief. That's when Neil decides to tell them that despite taking all this money and them letting them stay at their house without having to pay anything or really do anything they were on his list of people he hated. That pisses me off.
It's like my Dad put so well, they have one hand out to receive things, and the other is shooting them a bird.

Well everything's fine and dandy right? Well today I was gone. I was at Jackson's house(for those of you who don't know, he's the guy I'm currently dating) and so when I came home Mom had quite a bit to tell me. Let me just say, let it be great for Neil's sake as well as my fathers that my dad was not here today being a truck driver. Neil wouldn't have to worry about getting out in seven days and Dad would be going to jail. So Neil is making a huge fit. He's talking about how I apparently ate all the food he'd bought or something. I don't even know what he's talking about. As far as I know, all the food that is in the cabinets was bought by my parents, but even if he did buy it, so? How am I supposed to know if it's in the cabinets? That's where ALL the food is. If he had told me when he bought it not to eat it because it was his that would have been fine and dandy. No, while he is EATING MY MOTHER'S FOOD SHE COOKED FOR THEM he is bitching how I ate up all his food. Yeah. Then he goes off on a tangent about his religion and throwing it in my Mom's face. Well my mom retaliates by saying that he would believe ANY religion as long as it didn't have Jesus Christ involved. Well that just makes him blow up. He's up in her face ranting and screaming. Well this has happened quite often and Mom has had ENOUGH!

So she slaps him in the face.
Now, think for a minute. Yes, it was against the law for her to do that. But Neil stole money from her and she didn't turn him in. He's threatened her before and she never turned him in. He's ranted and screamed and told my dad over the phone and I quote "MAYBE she'll live." and he was never turned in. My parents have given and given and given to this bum until there was nothing and then they complained because they weren't giving them anything. He turns her in. She almost gets arrested, but thankfully they chose not to. Now he has seven days to get out of the house and I hope I never see this drugged up ass ever again. I'm sorry. This is a foul thing to say, but I say it with every fiber of my being. I have never truly wished anything bad on anyone in my life, but sometimes I really wish that his diabetes would finally do him in.

Okay if anyone really got to know me they would know that one, I love people with mental handicaps. One of my best friends has down syndrome. I also hate Sarah Palin because she's a crazy ass bitch who uses her family to get votes. That's why I absolutely love that Family Guy attacked her.

In an episode that aired Sunday, Chris goes out on a date with a girl who has down syndrome. When he asks what her family does she says how her mother is the former governor of Alaska. After seeing this, Palin makes a huge hissy fit about this and saying how horrible it is. What I love about it is that the girl who played the voice of the woman, who has down syndrome herself, made a comment stating, "I guess Governor Palin does not have a sense of humor. I thought the line "I am the daughter of the former Governor of Alaska" was very funny. I think the word is "sarcasm." In my family we think laughing is good. My parents raised me to have a sense of humor and to live a normal life. My mother did not carry me around under her arm like a loaf of French bread the way former Governor Palin carries her son Trig around looking for sympathy and votes."

DAMN!!! No offense, but it's pretty bad when someone with a mental disability is questioning you.

I learned about this story from sxephil on youtube. Go there and check him out! He's not sexy! [link]

I got like 3 different medications for being sick. It's kinda made me loopy and tired. Dad keeps teasing me and saying how I'm high. Blehh